E's Arrival

January 22, 2012 Sunday

Husband came to visit me in December and I have to admit it did more damage than good.  His arrival only reminded me of how much I miss our life together.  Going to the movies on the weekend and spending lazy Sunday’s watching football all day.  My little niece sent me a picture she drew of her and I with a bird and a dog and I tear up every time I see it.  Family sent warm clothes and girlfriends send daily essentials, entertainment and wine.  I spend 4 days with him and spend the following 4 weeks crying.  I used to consider myself such a strong woman, incapable of crying and now I am weak and fall apart at the sound of my husband’s voice.  I have issues believing that god is out there “doing this for a reason” and every day is a challenge