Abuelitos

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Grandma wakes up sick and all she wants to do is sleep.  I am once again glad that I am here to help take care of yet another grandmother who has fallen ill.  I feel like there is so much for me to make up for and although I know I can not make up 23 years of being gone in one week or even one month I can’t help but want to try.  There is so much I have missed and so much that I want to do for my family here in Mexico as well.  Although they say distance makes the heart grow fonder it is love that keeps the memories there.  I can not tell you how many great memories I have of my grandparents and how sadden I am that it took 23 years and my return for me to truly value that.  Now in their old age I see myself in each of them and wonder if I will be half the women my grandmothers are, if I will be half as intelligent as my grandfather is and if I will have the strength they did to watch my own family grown up and leave me like we did.