Looking forward


Saturday, August 13, 2011
Not much sleep last night I am anxious to be home and knowing that I only have one more week is keeping me awake.  I think about all the things I want to do when I get home and all the plans I want to make with my husband.  Jobs we enjoy, our own home, the ability to help our families and our community again I am looking forward to all of it.  Although, most of all I am looking forward to not being afraid anymore.  Not being afraid to get a job, to drive and to get sick and being able to take care of my family like I want to and how they deserve.  I have waited 23 for the ability to do all those things and I am one step closer to it. 

I was seven when my world was turned upside down and I had no choice in the matter and so for 23 years I have lived in fear, shame and desperation.  All while telling myself that things would one day change.  I am 30 and I still don’t believe that.  The only thing that has changed is my location and my separation from someone I never thought I would meet (my loving husband).   

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